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Hi,
I'm new to here and blogging in general, but someone suggested blogging is a great way of getting advice.

I know that I'm not overweight- I have a BMI of 24. But I'm not happy with my weight and haven't been for some time. I exercise reguarly and this year have done a sprint triathalon and a half marathon.

I am married and we both work full time- rarely get in before 8pm most nights so little free time during the week.

I consider myself sane, but I get so unhappy about my weight I have been chewing and spitting out food for the last 6 months. I don't do it all of the time, but have been cleverly hiding it from husband by wrapping it in foil or kitchen roll and putting in the bin or spiiting it down the sink or toilet.

Even writing this I know it sounds mad, but no idea how to get myself out of this rut.

My weight dicates my day- the was I feel and whether I want to socialise with people. I don't like having baths as it makes me analyse everything that is wrong with my body.

If anyone met me they would say I am the most sensible and organised personthy know- but inside I'm spiraling and not sure how to control this. Its almost like it isn't me but someone else.

If I tell anyone I know they'll either think I have an eating disorder- which I don't as can't loose any weight! And I also know what I'm doing is crazy- not i'm not in denial!

If anyone has been in similar situation then i'd like to hear how you got through it.

Hello Marmite29

You are right to be concerned about your behaviour with food as it does sound like the start of an eating disorder. I have not suffered from this myself, but I am trained to work with clients with eating disorders, including chewing and spitting (I'm a hypnotherapist). Please speak to someone about your behaviour and seek help as soon as you can -- the earlier you start dealing with the problem, the more likely you are to be able to deal with it. If you can, tell your husband and explain your concerns to him too.
Your doctor might be able to recommend a therapist in your area. Otherwise you can find one through organisations such as the British Association for Counselling and Psychotherapy (BACP) or the Hypnotherapy Association or National Council for Hypnotherapy.
I hope you find the support you need to enable you to become comfortable with your body weight and to develop a healthier approach to eating.

Good luck and best wishes